In a message from jail, Jen Shah is detailing how tough it was to say goodbye to her household for the following six-and-a-half years. 

Whereas in lock up on the Bryan Federal Jail Camp in Texas, the “Actual Housewives of Salt Lake Metropolis” alum wrote about her closing moments of freedom, saying she had “an nervousness assault” simply earlier than surrendering to officers.

“I couldn’t breathe and my palms went numb,” Jen, who’s serving a jail sentence for fraud, wrote in a March 9 Instagram message, which was posted by her husband Sharrieff Shah.

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The fact TV star recalled FaceTiming her oldest son, Sharrieff Jr., on her technique to jail as he reassured her “it could be okay.”

“I did not assume I might make it by the day,” she stated. “My worst worry and the unimaginable was about to occur — having to say goodbye to my candy husband and treasured child Omar.”

From there, the 49-year-old stated every thing “occurred so quick” and he or she was emotional in saying goodbye to her household, together with Sharrieff. “I turned to embrace him; hugging him as if holding him tougher would in some way erase this horrible nightmare.”

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Jail officers, she stated, continued to induce her to maneuver alongside, though they let her slot in a number of closing moments. 

“It is as if you understand your world is ending and you’ve got 30 seconds to inform the folks you’re keen on how a lot you’re keen on them and hope they really feel your love and perceive its magnitude,” Jen stated, including that she felt “so alone” as she walked away from the son and husband, each of whom had been crying as she was.

“I’m actually scared,” she stated earlier than concluding, “I really feel bodily sick. I really feel like I do not belong right here. I assumed I may do that however I’ve determined I can not. I need to go residence proper now, however I do know that’s unimaginable. Please Allah assist me, please.”

Jen surrendered on Feb. 17, seven months after she pleaded responsible in reference to a telemarketing fraud scheme that prosecutors stated preyed on the aged.

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The Bravo-lebrity was arrested on March 30, 2021 for her involvement within the scheme. Authorities alleged that Jen and her assistant, Stuart Smith, ripped off tons of of victims throughout the nation, primarily aged folks, by encouraging them to put money into shady on-line initiatives and promoting them nonexistent enterprise companies for years. They’re alleged to have complied lists of “leads,” who had been folks beforehand exploited, as they had been believed to be simpler targets. They might then promote the listing and take a reduce of the income. The observe, authorities stated, was occurring for 9 years.

A federal choose sentenced Jen to six-and-a-half years behind bars.

Homeland Safety Investigations Company stated in a press release after the arrest that Jen and Stuart “constructed their opulent way of life on the expense of weak, typically aged, working-class folks.”